| ELECTRIC FEEL NOW! |
[Tuesday, July 7th, 2009] |
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So here I sit again.
It's 6:50AM and I'm studying for a test I take in an hour.
Terrific.
(sometimes i think i'm one of those people who makes constant spelling errors and never notices)
I got this sweet dollar bill crane sitting infront of me.
It's the little things people.
My painting is almost done!!!
I think I liked it more before I saw what everyone else did.
I mean I still think it's awesome, but everyone made them so they look better from far away.
Well, frankly mine looks better up close.
Detail son, detail.
I wonder if I did the reverse of the assignment?
He didn't say anything when I brought it into class.. so hopefully not.
I kinda want to draw more now.
I don't have a sketchbook though, which is surprising.
When money is tight, it's taco bell before art I suppose.
Everytime I go to this math class on Tuesdays I'm at my dirtiest.
I should bathe more often. Eh.
a cat is just a cat.
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| it's my pussy i can do what i want... |
[Tuesday, June 30th, 2009] |
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Dear Erin,
WAY TO MAKE IT ANOTHER YEAR, BRO!
i'm proud of you, for being alive. GOOD JOB!
Also, good job on making it to the third disc on Star Ocean.
Quite a feat.
Love ya dog,
Erin.
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| i want two dogs, two cats, a big kitchen, and a welcome mat.. |
[Wednesday, June 24th, 2009] |
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Man. FINALLY!
art class was productive.
it's starting to get good, which is awesome.
school was becoming a bit of a nuisance, due to failure to do well.
i also FINALLY aced a math test.
granted, it was just a 7 question pop quiz..
but, I KICKED THAT SHITS ASS!
my video game is going ridiculously well!
i know, i know. lame.
i just found out all this shit i had been missing!
which makes it completely and without a doubt worth the $60.
ahhh, it feels good to win at life for once.
yesterday i got an oil change, tires rotated, alignment fixed, AND a new brake light.
YES!
what does sean paul do to thank me?
i get in the car today and my rearview mirror is sitting on the floor.
DAMN YOU FLORIDA!
it's been so hot outside i've stopped going out in the daytime, unless absolutely necessary.
i'm just not made for this florida heat/humidity.
breathing is becoming a big issue.
OH MAN!
the heat made me so dizzy the other day at school, ya know what i did?
i fucking blacked out!
how nuts is that?
it was only for a second, but still.. pretty awesome.
because i had a FANTASTIC morning, i'm going to relate the details.
whether you care or not. (the two of you.)
-woke up at 7:00AM.
-bowchikawowow.
-laughed at some lolcats.
-made 3 corndogs, ate all.
-played video games for a few hours.
-read my dragon book.
-stayed in my pj's till 3:00PM.
so my birthday is in six days, guys.
pretty exciting.
i was thinking of having a cookout.
it'd be nice to have almost everyone i love under one roof.
plus we would all be rocking jerseys son.
i don't know how comfortable a lot of people would be in the house though.
it's kinda tiny. oh well.
here's some pictures.
like this isn't long enough.
LOVE TO ALL!
( a peek into erin adams.. )
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| I love what you do to my heart, it's the best oh yea |
[Sunday, May 10th, 2009] |
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I can't stop listening to this song.
It's just seriously the cutest song.
Guy, I'm serious. CUTEST. SONG.
So I missed kickball.
Or should I say what was supposed to be kickball?
Joking, joking.
I was actually genuinely bummed about it.
Mo-mo seemed pretty stoked that I was going to go.
Once again, LetDown Adams.
I totally effed myself with my school schedule.
School Mon-Thurs. Work Thurs-Sun.
Mistake, son.
On the real.
Because of lack of sleep I've been late three out of four days.
No time for homework except between tables at work.
Lame. If I get bad grades I'm going to be crushed, dude.
Icing on the cake.
Oh yeah, I saw the Horrorpops the other day.
Lame.
And I thought a Bright Eyes show would be the most pretentious place.
Wrong, The current "punk" kid is nothing but a scene kid with a mohawk and studded jacket.
The Horrorpops were alright.
Seeing a girl play an upright bass was pretty tight.
Don't see that everyday.
Well, I don't.
The phone is still broken.
No screen, so no texts.
I love texting, I don't give a shit.
Yeah I fell into that ridiculous pit of shame.
So what?
Well my day sucked ass, but I hope your didn't.
Happy Mothers Day, folks!
Call your mommies and tell them you love them!
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| Hmm.. |
[Friday, April 17th, 2009] |
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Just a thought, for now.
You ever wanna just fuck something up?
Not because you're angry or what have you, but because it's all just really pointless.
These possessions.
I just want to find a brand new house and spray it.
One that's not lived in.
I just want to fuck some shit up.
Like smash a t.v., or slam a bat into a door.
I don't know.
It's a sweet release.
It's not like any of that stuff really means anything.
Guys, let's burn a huge pile of money.
Well... someone else's money.
Yours?
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| let's take this from the top. |
[Tuesday, April 14th, 2009] |
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Oh life, you sly dog.
Just when I think you're going to throw me a curve ball, you don't.
Wait.. what?
You never abandoned an opportunity to smash my face in.
What's the deal?
Should I be worried?
Jesus Christ!
WHAT IS YOUR DEAL CAT?!
Quit your bitchin'.
(my cat is going nuts. right this second. ugh.)
Things are going really really well.
This semester is almost over and I've got excellent grades!
I'm proud. I think I may make myself a certificate.
Like in grade school.
Or put one of those stickers on my car.
"My kid is an A/B student!"
I also signed up for the summer semester!!!!
Why is that so exciting?
Two reasons.
1. I get to take a 2D drawing/design class!
That's something I'm super stoked on. I haven't taken any kind of drawing class in years. Which is a shame. I still have so much stuff to learn to help me out. I'm kind of lost now.
2. Financial Aid upped my grant by a thousand dollars.
WHAT???!!!?! Everyone was so worried I wasn't even going to get a grant for the summer semester, let alone more money than last time. Financial Aid is really a godsend. I wouldn't be able to even afford one class without it. I just don't really come into that much money. I mean it's enough to skate by with, but not to skate by with and pay my way in school.
Thank you government, you did something right.
My personal life is going fantastically well.
I mean it's really scary.
I deserve it though.
I've killed some things along the way, which I realize I did.
Sometimes we don't all make the best decisions and let the fear run our lives, ya know?
Things can get better. Eventually.
Erin is a jerk. That's really all it is. Not a malicious jerk, just a jerk.
I'm really happy right now.
School is going so well.
Work is even improving bit by bit.
I need this positive attitude.
Let's try and keep it posi guys!!
If you read all of this.. I hope you're not so worried anymore.
Love you dogs.
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| giving him something he can feel.. |
[Tuesday, March 24th, 2009] |
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to let him know this love is real.
Man. Remember En Vogue?
God.
Those were some assertive/hot females.
Anyways, more important matters.
Like the fact that the lower right side of my face is totally swollen.
Not from anything cool like a fight, mind you.
More like poor dental decisions.
I have been having problems with my wisdom teeth/gums.
So what do I do about it?
Nothing.
Seemed practical.
Plus it saved some money.
Although I think it's gotten way worse and will now cost me much more money.
Like my jaw is swollen.
I can't close my mouth all the way.
I can't chew anything.
Moving my mouth hurts, well even not moving my mouth hurts actually.
Drinking anything hurts.
I'd say I went from tolerable to OMG SOMEONE PLEASE RIP MY TEETH OUT PLEASE!
Lame.
Times like this remind me that I need to make friends with people who have some helpful talents.
Like dentistry.
Or carpentry.
SHIT!
I just remembered I still have to go to H&R Block because I owe the IRS $50.
God life.
What is your deal lately?
I don't bother you. Totally not cool, bro.
IT'S DRIVIN ME OUTTA MY MIND. THAT'S WHY IT'S HARD FOR ME TO FIND. CAN'T GET IT OUTTA MY HEAD. MISS HER. KISS HER. LOVE HER. THAT GIRLS IS POISON! NEVER TRUST A BIG BUTT AND A SMILE.
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| hey pretty darling don't wait up for me.. |
[Monday, March 16th, 2009] |
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..it's gonna be a long walk home.
every couple of years i rediscover some artist or band that i completely played out.
you see.
that's because i have a habit of listening to said artist or band non-stop for weeks.
it's my own fault.
really it is.
well.
to the point i was trying to make somewhere in all of that.
i've renewed my love for bruce.
bruce springsteen that is.
it's helping me feel a lot calmer.
which is pretty awesome.
i kind of really needed it.
things have been hectic and crazy.
which, again, is my fault.
i can't concentrate on this right now.
sorry.
bruce is calling my name, i have to go.
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| work.. that pizza butt. |
[Wednesday, March 11th, 2009] |
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this could be the end.
actually i'm already assuming it is.
human relations are so pointless and heartbreaking, why do we bother?
especially when the "we" i'm referring to is a girl who gives it all for nothing.
i wish he could get it.
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| CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASH into a ditch. |
[Friday, March 6th, 2009] |
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man.
so i fell off the wagon.
i know, i know.
..wait. not like i broke sobriety.
i was never sober per se.
i meant like i missed a day of school.
:[
how lame is that shit?
i deserve your ridicule and jabs.
really, i do. go ahead. it's okay.
i beat the shit out of myself for that one.
i (like an idiot) thought i had class at 5:00pm.
which i did.
on wednesday.
it was tuesday.
this smokage is fuckin' with my head man.
i mean really.
also a few days ago, my computer went all blah blah blah.
so i had to recover it from out of box status.
lame.
all that music i worked so diligently to acquire, gone.
like it wasn't even there in the first place.
that hurts life. seriously. low blow.
GOD! do you ever get those times where you can stop sneezing?
it's happening right now. really obnoxious.
sneeze number 7.
hmm..
well. things are going good.
in all aspects as usual.
relationship is sub-par as usual.
who cares? right?
i really don't anymore. i think i'm starting to hate him.
lucky him.
hahahaha. oh that's rich.
i feel like i should be writing this all crazy on a page.
like with slanted phrases and lots of bold.
repeating words.
this book i'm reading man.
it's fucking with my head.
like for real.
i'm having nightmares and my fear of the dark is really only getting worse.
how scary does that make me sound?
like a crazy person?
who give a fuck.
i'm terrified of the dark bros.
like OMG WTF WH3R3 1Z TEH L1T3?!!11111
my kryptonite = the dark.
PATHETIC
i feel weird. i hope this comes off that way.
oh internet.
you're ridiculous. love you.
EDIT: i just listened to this awesome aesop rock song featuring john darnielle from the mountain goats. it's called coffee.
it's really awesome.
although it is a little reminiscent of that handsome boy modeling school song with the mars volta.
oh well. get what you can.
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| you get the car, i'll get the night off.. |
[Friday, February 20th, 2009] |
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aw.
man.
...and you will know us by the trail of dead is just god damn adorable.
i'm realizing that the majority of what i post is about music.
..well that and the male gender.
but hey lets just chalk that up to the vagina in me.
..or would the correct wording be on me. i can't tell really.
so yeah, i'm a little drunk.
i'm a little high.
what of it?
i've come to a few conclusions in the past twenty seconds.
1. i will always love slow sappy songs. as much as i hate to admit, emo erin is a pretty fitting title for me.
2. i really love writing. i mean i love to draw and paint, but i really do like writing. this is a new discovery for me.
3. i will always love you, no matter how many times you piss me off or fuck me over. i'm just a sucker for punishment maybe, but no one gets me like you.
4. i love billy's boathouse. best. job. ever. i know i'm just a waitress in a seafood joint, but god damn if it's not the best job i've had yet.
i also really love this kid austin i work with.
i'm pretty sad about him joining the army.
i mean on the one hand i don't really like the whole idea of that, but you can't really be a true pacifist these days i guess.
then on the other, he really wants to do it and has been planning on it for years without any kind of influence either way.
i'll just miss his face at work, he's just such a nice kid.
there aren't many of them working in the kitchen's of america nowadays.
..sigh.
oh man.
school is going soooo good!
straight A student still.
hopefully i can keep that up.
i mean i'm only taking two classes, it's not that big a deal.
in more music news!
i (rather late, i know) just got the lonely island cd.
incredibad.
god. i love them.
and i love that i can listen to it as more than just a comedy cd.
i mean the i'm on a boat song with t-pain. classic.
i love t-pain. forever.
i don't even care what that says about me, or how that makes you judge my music taste.
HE IS SO GREAT.
come on guys.
he has an aqua teen hunger force chain.
like a chain, chain. made out of platinum with diamonds and all that shit.
he's just a sweet dude i bet.
alright.
i'm done rambling to nothing.
later skater.
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| 38', 24', 37'. you and me honey we're a match made in heaven. |
[Tuesday, February 10th, 2009] |
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i want SHAMWOW! so bad.
i'm kind of a sucker for infomercials.
the list of things i want:
1. 
SHAMWOW!
2. 
Nuwave Oven
3. 
Magic Bullet (even though ricky's mom tried to turn me off to it.)
i'm sure there is more. at the moment though i really can't think of anything else.
feel free to add your own.
two things to say about this picture real quick.
1. OH MY GOD IT'S TOKEN BLACK GUY FROM REAL WORLD (or) ROAD RULES!
2. i'm really sick and tired of skanks.
let me elaborate on point number 2 a little more.
what the fuck ever happened to classy women?
not necessarily polo shirts and a strand of pearls with a knit sweater pulled over your shoulders, just women with respect for themselves.
i mean seriously. why do you want to objectified?
why would you want men (or women) not to take you seriously?
i mean when you act like a slut, talk like a slut, chances are.. you're a slut.
nobody wants a slut for longer than a weekend or two.
i'm just sick of the trash. it's making me look like a prude.
whatever happened to forming an actual relationship with someone before you boink them?
huh?
meaningful sex is like a long lost dream now.
people are even saying sex is the most important part of a relationship.
WHAT?
are you kidding me?
out of everything i have to offer, you're going to judge me based on my performance?
that's going to determine whether or not we're going to last.
really.
well then, i have two words for you.
FUCK YOU
i just really hate 99% of women.
i'm sick of being the last person to mean it when they say "i love you."
to mean that if you ever needed me, i'd be there.
to mean that no one and nothing compares to you.
and to hear, "i love you" back, and it's just words.
just words.
i'm also sick of having a really shitty pipe.
the bong is just really a hassle, no matter how much i love it.
this pipe is total garbage though. i'm so broke.
i wish i had the courage to say this shit to your face.
"i wish i could quit you"
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| Pappa been smooth since the days of underoo's. |
[Tuesday, February 3rd, 2009] |
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first off.
did everyone here the good news?
diddy's back in the studio.
isn't that just fabulous?
myspace thought it was such good news they put it on the front page.
..just another reminder why that shit is a waste of my time.
I'm listening to hypnotize right now and realizing how diddy got so much money for riding coat tails.
what a piece of garbage.
"have sex on rugs that persian."
"that's right"
really?
that's you being a hype man?
cut me a break.
onto more pressing matters.
I GOT A FUCKING ONE HUNDRED PERCENT ON MY FIRST PAPER!
yeah. i'm kinda a big deal.
i mean. i was pretty confident that i was atleast getting a "b".
man, a perfect score?
that was the biggest confidence booster ever.
yes. i'm going to brag about it to everyone and on every device i possibly can.
i deserve it.
on the downside of life lately, because there always is one.
bitch, i'm broke.
i mean like really really broke.
it sucks.
i don't know what to do.
then on top of that, the car is just getting worse and worse.
i just don't know what to do man.
i have two days to pay rent.. lord knows how i'm going to manage that.
i mean.. i was thinking about going to gameforce and trying to sell some dvd's or old video games.
things are just getting pretty down right now.
lame.
then on top of all of that, my house smells like crap.
which means i have to clean it.
which means.. GAH! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
well.
that's basically the update for now.
i mean. i just don't know what to write about anymore.
i've just kinda stopped caring about anything but school or work.
so ya know.
have a good one?
arf.
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| people movin' out. people movin' in. |
[Wednesday, January 28th, 2009] |
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why? because of the color of their skin.
Thanks to tropic thunder i rediscovered the temptations.
And thank god for that.
I forgot how good they was.
So I'm back from Boston and broker than ever!
I'm not sure what I said when I updated this thing last, but some money problems occurred literally the day before I was leaving.
What kind of money problem? you ask.
Well, where do I begin?
Well I didn't get a paycheck because the payroll people are straight up idiots.
I needed that money because my trip also included a 4 hour bus ride to New York to visit.
Which ended up being $5 less than what I was told.
Then I went to do my taxes. Which I'm never doing at H & R Block again.
Apparently I owe the IRS $50. Awesome.
Considering I'm only getting $160 back.
Then on top of that they charged me $75 for filing my taxes with them.
So I can't get my $20 refund until I pay the IRS.
Why they won't just take it out of the refund is beyond me.
So yes. Nice start.
Boston was fun as always.
Very cold. Snow everywhere. Literally EVERYWHERE.
That was pretty awesome. Since I had never seen it before I wouldn't stop playing in it.
Which is not good considering I'm from Florida.
The cold and I don't agree as much as I wish we did.
So of course I'm absurdly sick now.
Brandon's birthday we went to the museum of science and saw the mythical creatures exhibit.
AWESOME.
giant dragon. life-size unicorn. giant kraken. hilarious chupacabra doll.
The museum there is sooo sick nasty.
I was mad jealous. Pretty much all the pictures I took on the trip are of the museum.
There were stuffed bears everywhere.
It was madness.
Then there was also a stuffed platypus.
That was pretty great.
Then I went to NY to go visit the good man fighting the good fight.
Didn't really do much, other than watch cartoons and eat.
Hanging with Ricky is always sweet.
Don't really have to go do anything.
Although I saved his life eight thousand times.
Just stepping out into traffic like that. GIVE SOMEONE A HEART ATTACK YOU BASTARD!
I mean really. Cars creep me out.
I mean I wish I had more to talk about the trip, I'm just so exhausted.
My whole body is just so achy, I still haven't had time to re-coup.
Hope everyone had an equally crazy and banana-nuts busy/exciting weekend.
Love you. You know.
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| Doesn't it make you feel better. |
[Friday, January 23rd, 2009] |
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So I'm leaving in literal minutes now.
l i t e r a l m i n u t e s .
Pretty stoked.
Actually very stoked.
I need this. I just want to get away from CrazyMcCrazyface.
Which is what I'm calling Duval these days.
I like it.
Plus I just really really love Boston.
That place just rules so hard.
I want to move back to you sooo hard.
Soo hard, baby.
I borrowed this HUGE puffy white american eagle jacket.
It's a got a fur lining on the hood.
Yes I know what you're thinking.
"How played out."
Well quite frankly, you can suck it.
It's fucking sweet.
And I look like Han Solo in it.
Big ups to Mo-Mo for pointing that out.
Instantaneous, "OH MY GOD I KNOW!", because it was so true.
I'm pretty nervous about flying guys.
Which is weird 'cause usually I'm totally not.
I got more chance of getting hurt driving that piece of shit Sean Paul around.
Poor Sean. He's going to be so sad with no one to drive him around.
Poor cat too.
I will miss you most of all cat.
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[Monday, January 19th, 2009] |
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..i'm so tired.
i feel like i should write in this just for lack of a better thing to do.
plus i have work in like an hour so i can't fall asleep now.
geeeeez.
i've never been soo busy before.
i'm not just laying around watching t.v. so much these days.
i've been hanging out with people.
trying to keep up with my homework.
working as much as i can for some money.
which is actually ridiculously tight right now.
i mean i leave for boston on friday.
how many dollars do i have to bring with me so far?
let me tell you.
$5. yes, $5.
i keep trying to explain to people that i have no money to bring.
oh you don't need money. you'll still have fun.
..uhh duh i will have fun.
but i do gotta eat people! i do have to take a bus or train everywhere.
..HELLO?
..tards.
nervous nervous nervous nervous.
then when i get back, rent is due in like 4 days.
i may have to skip sleep for a bit when i get back and just try and work a few doubles in a row.
well..
i can always sleep when i'm dead.
so there's that.
oh man! then i'm also trying to plan a trip to go to yellowstone.
how great would that be?
i've seen pictures because my friend works/lives there.
it's totally beautiful.
and not something i actually take the time to enjoy.
it'd be different.
hmm.. what else?
i haven't really ridden my bike at all.
why?
it's a mountain bike.
granted it is a huffy.. but it's still a mountain bike.
if there is anything on earth that i can't stand.. it's a mountain bike.
it was free though.
...and from my grandma.
maybe i'll give it another shot.
and i leave you with this.
thanks internet.. for keeping me awake, yet again.
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